Moving on

Well I know I need to start back up on my blog. We have been doing so many fun things as a family and my kids are growing like crazy I really need to get going. For those of you who don't know about a month ago at my 22 week ultra sound we found out our little girl never developed a brain. Normally they don't make it to that point but she had but she wouldn't live for more than an hour after birth. It was hard news for our family but my wonderful mother came down and just took care of us. They send us to a specialist about 5 days later and her heart had stopped. They put some sea weed stuff in me to start dilating me so we could do a DNC on Friday but it put me into labor. It started about 12:44 in the morning and we barely made it to the hospital at 4am and had her minutes later. It really was a horrible process but now we are able to put her on the records of the church as a steel born and there were so many little miracles coming from everywhere. My mom stayed a totally of 11 days and we couldn't have done this without her. We are moving on. Our kids are great and we are excited to try for another one soon. I still think of her often but I'm happy. I know that the lord loves me so much and has helped me soooo much this last month. WE are so blessed and know that makes me so happy.  I know this little paragraph is a mess and doesn't make a lot of since but its all I can do for now. Moving slowly still.